Jessica-Terrible

"Why do you look so tired?"     Maybe it's because I haven't slept in three days,         Or maybe it's too many black eyes and all too little sunny days.                                                     Either way I hope you never ask. "What's that scar from?"     Maybe from the time I hated myself so much it scarred,         Or maybe it's from too many stars and not enough love.                                                     Either way I hope you never ask. "Why are you so sad?"     Maybe it's because everything that's will ever happen has happened before.         Or because your name is just a combination of six different l

 1.) It takes 17 muscles to smile and 43 to frown. I look at you, And your smile grows wider. How can so little muscle preform such an astonishing act? 2.) Babies are born with 300 bones, but the number is reduced to 206. You stand, Facing adversity bravely. Your face set, But never angry. I can't help but think you were born with 400, You can not possibly have less. 3.) The strongest muscle in the human body is the tongue. I watch you, And you are calm. As always. Your tongue does not deliver lashes, Or hate. You're kind. Your biggest muscle is your heart. 4.) Moles can be a sign of skin cancer. This I know can not be true. You a

Apparently it is an act of courage, To look cops in the eye and tell them the truth as my mother's spilling lies. They looked at me as if I was worthy of a purple heart, Not just the purple bruises littering my body. I am not a war hero. A rape victim. I am not beaten, Though I've been abused. I am not a pitiable wreck. I am strong. Strong as the people I am not. I used to speak with my eyes. In a foreign tongue everyone could speak. But now. I am tired. It's not courage. But self destructive fearlessness.